死の恐怖を味はふほどならば生まれまほしくはあらざりき。
死の痛みを感ずるほどならば生まれまほしくはあらざりき。
我はさりとて生まれにけり。
残りほど刻まれて、着々と死へと向かへり。
など我がと問ありともいたづらなり。
心などなし。
生は残酷なり。
命は無惨なり。
最期は何も残らず。
自らの血に溺れ死ぬ。
息がにきず、なやみて死にゆく。
涙など渇れ果て、声も出でず。
いかに望むとも生き永らえはせず。
永遠などあらず。
かかること考へまほしくはあらざりき。
けれども、夢にさえ死は追ひくれば、考へざるを得ず。
いかでか恐怖も痛みもあらぬ安楽死をたまへ。
いかでか安く眠らせたまへ。
我は今にもさ思ひて生けり。
I didn't want to be born more than a horror of death.
I didn't want to be born if I could feel the pain of death.
I'm still born.
The remaining time is carved and he is steadily dying.
It's no use asking me why.
There is no meaning.
Life is cruel.
Life is miserable.
Nothing remains at the end.
Drowns and dies with his own blood.
I can't breathe and suffer and die.
I'm thirsty with tears and no voice.
No matter how much you want, you won't survive.
There is no eternity.
I didn't want to think about this.
However, even in a dream, death follows me, so I have to think about it.
Please give me euthanasia without fear or pain.
Please sleep peacefully.
I still live that way.
